Y\u0131l sonlar\u0131nda hep bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn kaplar i\u00e7imi, vururum anti-depressan haplar\u0131n\u0131n dibine. Psikiyatristim terkedilmi\u015flik sendromu diyor. \u00c7ok uzun y\u0131llar ABD\u2019de ya\u015fad\u0131m. \u015e\u00fckran G\u00fcn\u00fc, Noel ve y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131nda hep tek ba\u015f\u0131mayd\u0131m. Ayr\u0131ca do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm de s\u00f6mester tatiline denk geldi\u011fi i\u00e7in 12 y\u0131lda bir tek kez bile kutlayamad\u0131m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Emrah gibi ac\u0131lar\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fuyum ben. Bir g\u00fcn M\u00fcsl\u00fcm Baba gibi filmim \u00e7ekilecek ve g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 sel olup g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek sinema salonlar\u0131n\u0131. Ama ac\u0131lar beni ezmedi, aksine ate\u015ften bir f\u0131r\u0131nda pi\u015fen tu\u011fla gibi sertle\u015ftim, hissizle\u015ftim ve utanmazla\u015ft\u0131m. Yak\u0131n dostlar\u0131m bana \u201cSava\u015fan \u00c7akal\u201d derler. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc le\u015f kokusu ald\u0131m m\u0131, aslan, kaplan filan dinlemem en k\u0131sa yoldan yeme\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6kerim.<\/p>